Falling Ashes

It’s been a year and months

And … days

since the first time I saw you sleeping next to me

and that night you ripped off your shirt

Love, I have no idea how this will end

Maybe the fallen ashes melted to the air like pollen grains

Looking for a promise to make home to

and that dance taught these feet the art of involuntary steps every time our song is played

Or maybe the next day the absolute obstacle course of my perception of moving on

Will leave us

Like my love stories laced with poetry

However it ends

I want you to know that, at this very moment,

I love you

I love you for the toughest day we survived together

For every time I make you coffee so badly

I’d put a little sugar dashed with lots of creamer

I know that tasted horrible to you

But you drank it down to the very last drop anyway

For the morning I woke up next to you seeing two question marks curled around each other

When I thought there was only one

For the night you said I looked edgy while we were having dinner at this Japanese restaurant

For the night you opened doors for me and held my hand as we crossed streets after streets

For the day you gave me something that’s growing and thriving

Then there’s this woman you called lethargic who says I love you all the time

Through her jumpy veins

Do you know, the day you told me we were tortured souls

I swore I’ll walk you through to better days

And look, love,

I had my heart fixed to it

Just like my dragonfly heart is still right there

Pinned like an embedded ornament on the window pane

My composure was lost to the wind

when I kept looking at you before you got in the car as we said goodbye

When the aircraft sounded thoughts of you became fire that’s keeping my chest warm

You are the raging voice that’s calling me for more poems no one else is interested in reading